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resolution [Jan. 6th, 2007|03:06 pm]
imperfect
okay, so i'm actually going to make a goal that i intend to keep this new year.

i took my psat in october and got a 220 (only those who know me understand why this irks me. well, i'm happy about my 80 in math.)

so, i've decided my goal for this year.

in october '07 i will take the sat. i want a 2400. it can be done. and i'm gonna do it.



off to the dictionary! (come on, i know i'm not the only one here who reads it)
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again and again... [Jul. 6th, 2006|10:54 pm]
imperfect
[Current Location |Nonnu's office]
[I'm feeling... |confusedconfused]
[The Sounds In My Head!!!!!!!!!!! |"Endlessly," She Said - A.F.I.]

okay, so here i am again, sitting at my computer reading AFI fanfics, pumping carbonation into my gut for hte sole reason of belching it out and listening to DECEMBERUNDERGROUND feeling sorry for myself as i come across and read an old website full of writings about the girl... cha, w.e i write htese little blogs like anyone's actually going to read them so let's jsut be honest. B. there, it's her name and it's not like anyone will ever read it printed here. anyone who knows her at least. well, i was reading through this od stie and some little blurb I had written and i remember why all of this shit seems o artificial and pointless to me. the only reason i had tried to "have a life" in the first place was to make her happy. to seem healthy so she woudln't worry abotu me. and now i think i might actually have a shot at trying to be happy in a life without her while at the back of my mind i can't help but hear myself scream "you can't be happy without her!" in this blurb i'm pisse dat her for giving me a 'false hope' so as to remain longer on this earth. I can't believe that i can actually sit there on the phone listening to her talk about how much she's in love with someone else and not scream my head off but i cna't because i want to keep her happy. i can't do anything to hurt her without hurting myself tenfold because i can't bear to see her unhappy. i'm sitting here just marveling at how incredulous it is as i fill in answers for her over the phone for her mySpace survey getting every question exactly right. "how do you know all this stuff about me?" i just want to scream "because i'm fucking in love with you and everything about you i want to remember and keep forever because it's as close as i'll ever get to the real thing again!" it's like those fangirls wo scrape up every piece of their favorite rockstar they can find because they mean so much to them but they'll never really mean anything to this idol. it's only different because with her it's not just fandom it's fucking lvoe and it's so frustrating because through all her boyfriends who fuck her over and all the times that bitch has been a moron and made her cry somehow i'm still fucking here making sure she's going to be alright. how fucking thick can she be!?!

okay, now i'm just ranting but i dont' understand how she can't see that i could be something that works. in a few months i'll be back here and i wont' be going anywhere. i've never cheated on her while we were "going out". I would never do anything her boyfriends have done. i would never lie like steph. and chris0she fucking lvoes him? oh, the things i could tell her. so much shit he's done that she wouldn't believe. of course that part of this all make sme evil too, but i'm not suposed to be the one faithful to her. great job he's doing.

this is just fucking amazing what she can't see. i think she does. i just dont' know why she doesn't drop this shit and admit it.

ENdlessly,
Nymph
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yo yo lyke om-gee an update! [Jul. 3rd, 2006|03:11 pm]
imperfect
[I'm feeling... |annoyedannoyed]
[The Sounds In My Head!!!!!!!!!!! |TV...]



Julianna Marie Maguire's Aliases



Your movie star name: Mushrooms John



Your fashion designer name is Julianna Stockholm



Your socialite name is Banana Boston



Your fly girl / guy name is J Mag



Your detective name is Wolf Sun Valley



Your barfly name is Cakey Thing SXe



Your soap opera name is Marie Summer



Your rock star name is Reese's My Ex



Your Star Wars name is Jullit Magdav



Your punk rock band name is The Weird Awl

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shock shock! [Apr. 13th, 2006|08:13 pm]
imperfect
[I'm feeling... |amusedhmm...okay ?]
[The Sounds In My Head!!!!!!!!!!! |Faith - Ginger Sling]

You scored as Abs/Stomach. You are attracted to: the abs/stomach. You are a abs/stomach guy/gurl.

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Butt

67%

Abs/Stomach

67%

Boobs

58%

Face

50%

Penis

0%

What Body Part Are You Attracted To?(pics)
created with QuizFarm.com
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(no subject) [Apr. 13th, 2006|06:45 pm]
imperfect
[I'm feeling... |accomplishedaccepting...finally]
[The Sounds In My Head!!!!!!!!!!! |Regret - Me]

okay, enough o fhtis bullshit. i'm gay

Is there truly a point in even considering being something/someone you aren't? There are truths in this world. Why fight them? People are the way they are and you can't make them change. No one can change you but you, and you can't force someone to grow up and start caring about other people until they decide to. That's just the way it is and I'm sick of fighting that.


I'm alone. I always have been and I ever will be.

I'm not going to keep trying to change that. It is me. It makes me who I am; I make me who I am. Why would I want anything more?
This is the way God intended me. Why fuck with his plan?
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why bother!?! [Apr. 10th, 2006|09:04 pm]
imperfect
[I'm feeling... |confusedmmmyampf! :(]
[The Sounds In My Head!!!!!!!!!!! |Dead to the World - Nightwish]

why the hell am i even gay! lately i seem to be the center of male attention and that's it! this sux! normally i'd be used to this....but i'm kinda scared.
...do normal lesbians even consider fucking boys? damn him for even bringing it up! it's not a big deal when they're joking or know it's never gonna happen, like usual, but he was dead serious.

i know everyone's bi, no matter how much they favor a certain sex, but still....
do i really wanna break my gold star record for something stupid?

...i don't know. why am i even considering!?! he's not exactly something i should fuck if i'm even bi! hello, taken!

i just suck at life lately i guess :-/

Nymph
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(no subject) [Mar. 19th, 2006|04:54 pm]
imperfect
[I'm feeling... |bitchyeh]
[The Sounds In My Head!!!!!!!!!!! |A Quick Little Flight-Armor For Sleep]

C'est plus incroixable. Je me deteste! Pourquoi je ne peux pas faite une chose bonne? Pour une personne? Pourquoi!?! Je suis une mauvais personne. Je veux ecrivez plus quand je suis a la maison....

votre pour toujours
Nymph
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wish! :) [Mar. 13th, 2006|10:04 pm]
imperfect
[I'm feeling... |contentyup]
[The Sounds In My Head!!!!!!!!!!! |Photograph-Nickelback]

this is scary

lets see if it works....



















I am taking the bait -
what do I have to lose right?



























Hope it works!



























Supposedly The Phone Will Ring
Right After You Do This.



























Just read the little stories and
think of a wish as you scroll all
the way to the bottom. There is
a message there - then make your
wish.
























No attachment on this one.



























Stories



























I'm 13 years old, and I wished
that my dad would come home from
the army, because he'd been having
problems with his heart and right
leg. It was 2:53 p.m . When I made
my wish. At 3:07 p.m. (14 minutes
later), the doorbell rang, and
there my Dad was, luggage and all!!









I'm Katie and I'm 20 and I've been
having trouble in my job and on the
verge of quitting. I made a simple
wish that my boss would get a new
job. That was at 1:35 and at 2:55
there was an announcement that he
was promoted and was leaving for
another city. Believe me...this
really works!!!















My name is Ann and I am 45 years
of age. I had always been single
and had been hoping to get into a
nice, loving relationship for many
years. While kind of daydreaming
(and right after receiving this email)
I wished that a quality person would
finally come into my life. That was at
9:10 AM on a Tuesday. At 9:55 AM
a FedEx delivery man came into my
office.He was cute, polite and
could not stop smiling at me. He
started coming back almost everyday
(even without packages) and asked me
out a week later. We married 6
months later and now have been
happily married for 2 years.



What a great email it was!!



























Just scroll down to the end, but
while you do, think of a wish.
Make your wish when you have completed
scrolling. Whatever age you are, is the
number of minutes it will take for your
wish to come true. ex.you are 25 years
old, it will take 25 minutes for your wish
to come true).



























However, if you don't send this to
people in 5 minutes, you will have bad
luck for years!!



Go for it!!!















SCROLL DOWN!!!!



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STOP!!!



Congratulations!!! Your wish will
now come true in your age minutes.



Now follow this carefully....it
can be very rewarding!!!!



If you repost this within the next 5 min.
something major that you've been wanting
will happen.



This is scary!



The phone will ring right after you repost this
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(no subject) [Mar. 13th, 2006|07:46 pm]
imperfect
[I'm feeling... |crappykee]
[The Sounds In My Head!!!!!!!!!!! |Bad Boy-Cascada]

http://www.notebooks4free.com/default.aspx?r=614948

i NEEEEED a new computer like whoah. one that worx.....and is from this century :-p
it really is free, i promise. as long as u choose an offer w. a free trial
u can cancel it after like 2/3 days
(careful-some have s+h costs)

more people who sign up-faster i get a new comp and faster u get urs. we all win :-D
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just realized [Mar. 12th, 2006|07:10 pm]
imperfect
[I'm feeling... |curiouseesh]
[The Sounds In My Head!!!!!!!!!!! |Stupid Girls-Pink]

okay, i have just realized that i have not used my deviantart in like *counts* 7 months. ya, i'm actually using it now, x-posting the chapters of my book on there after i do on my website i have for it. I don't know why i didn't realize to use that stie for this, but usagi just showed me her book on there and it hit me to put mine there too. she's on chapter 6-i'm still writing my chapter 1! eesh! must get working! ...why do i have so many different websites
-livejournal
-msn
-a million freewebs
-myspace
-(in a moment of severe confusion and idiocy)xanga

i hardly use them, only myspace and livejournal for the most part w. the occasional freewebs thingie when i decide to edit again. i am going to be busy if i decide to use all of these....

alright-back to writing/reading/watching dn angel

lata
-Nymph
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