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(no subject) [Mar. 6th, 2006|09:41 pm]
i just want my life back
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now onto the self-pity! [Mar. 1st, 2006|09:38 pm]
[I'm feeling... |drunkugh]
[The Sounds In My Head!!!!!!!!!!! |Ya Tvoya Ne Pervaya - t.A.T.u.]

okay, i'm rather somewhat ashamed of myself. i'm sitting here pissed drunk, alone, and regretting my whole fucking last 24 hrs. i'm an idiot. i loved someone and then i dumped them for stupid reasons that turned out to be no reasons at all. i'm a fucking idiot!!!!!!!!!!
well, then. back to the vodka... just 2 more bottles and it's all over. or i could just fall asleep on my back...
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pickles! [Jan. 4th, 2006|10:56 pm]
[I'm feeling... |crushedhmm-must change this scheme...]
[The Sounds In My Head!!!!!!!!!!! |The L Word Theme-Betty]

aight, so they got me back out of massachusetts-big whoop. *rolls eyes* ya, i'm kinda sick of life right now. I had a major, uh, "whoopsie" last night, thought i might've hit a vein as the bleeding was extensive and they inner was somewhat purple...hmm. deep, right over the vein and yet-nada. *sigh* no luck. oh, well. lol jk, of course, i have to live to fuck sumone who i didn't get to cuz of a little case of the flu...*blushes* yeah-puking's a real turn-on for a lot of girls :-P well, i might get another shot next month. i'm not providing details or a name, because without details i can't get in trouble. ha! I have evaded you! lol. must shower-lata
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I'm melting [Dec. 13th, 2005|07:39 pm]
[I'm feeling... |crushed...]
[The Sounds In My Head!!!!!!!!!!! |my fading heartbeat]

Seemed to stop my breath
My head on your chest
Waiting to cave in
From the bottom of my...
Hear your voice again
Could we dim the sun
And wonder where we've been
Maybe you and me
So kiss me like you did
My heart stopped beating
Such a softer sin

In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire

Never caught my breath
Every second I'm without you I'm a mess
Ever know each other
Trust these words are stoked
My cuts aren't healing

I'm melting
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire

You could stay and watch me fall
And of course I'll ask for help
We could take our heads off

I'm melting
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
and I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
In your eyes
Let's sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes
In your eyes
Let's sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes
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don't you see my tring to ride out this hurricane? [Dec. 8th, 2005|05:02 pm]
[I'm feeling... |sad*sigh*]
[The Sounds In My Head!!!!!!!!!!! |Hurricane-Tapping the Vein (the Damage)]

ok, i have officially found the sweetest breakup song ever! it's clear that the girl's in pain and yet it's not a "you're such a fucking asshole" song. i love it! it makes me cry when i let it make my mind wander to... ya w/e.

by: Tapping the Vein

I will never tell you; I'd rather sew up my mouth
And I'd choke sooner than ever say it out loud
Figure it out
I still wish you were here

It's impossible for what's left of this to be saved
And it's sinking in that my being here's a mistake
Forget I was here

Don't you see me trying?
I'm slit now I'm sliding
Floating, flying
I'm ready for my fade
I will wait for you because you are all I know

I am breaking down
From breaking in
Give me the wings to fly

Don't you see my trying to ride out this hurricane?

*sigh* the best 'just let me go and forget about me' song ever written!
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wtf is wrong w/ schools! [Dec. 3rd, 2005|12:54 pm]
[I'm feeling... |irritatedirritated]
[The Sounds In My Head!!!!!!!!!!! |Perfect 2nite-Lambretta]

Judge Rules Lesbian Student Can Sue School

SANTA ANA, Calif. (Dec. 2) - A federal judge ruled that a lesbian student can sue an Orange County school district and her principal for revealing her homosexuality to her mother.
Charlene Nguon, 17, may go forward with her suit claiming violation of privacy rights, U.S. District Judge James V. Selna ruled in a decision dated Nov. 28 and announced Thursday by the American Civil Liberties Union of Southern California.

The Garden Grove Unified School District had sought dismissal of a portion of the suit, arguing that Nguon openly kissed and hugged her girlfriend on campus and thus had no expectation of privacy.

However, Selna ruled that Nguon had "sufficiently alleged a legally protected privacy interest in information about her sexual orientation."

No trial date was set.

"This is the first court ruling we're aware of where a judge has recognized that a student has a right not to have her sexual orientation disclosed to her parents, even if she is out of the closet at school," said Christine Sun, an ACLU attorney who brought the case on behalf of Nguon and the Gay-Straight Alliance Network.

"Coming out is a very serious decision that should not be taken away from anyone, and disclosure can cause a lot of harm to students who live in an unsupportive home," Sun said.

Nguon sued after Santiago High School Principal Ben Wolf told her mother about her sexuality last year.

"It's a really good thing for the case and for other students," Nguon said of the ruling.

"Our family is really happy that the judge agreed Charlene can continue to stand up for her rights," her mother, Crystal Chhun, said in a written statement. "The person to decide when and how to talk with our family about this should have been my daughter, not her principal."

District officials have declined to comment on the suit.

The suit also claims discrimination, contending that Nguon was suspended several times because she ignored orders by Wolf to stop hugging and kissing her girlfriend.

Heterosexual couples engaging in similar behavior weren't disciplined, the suit contends.

The suit seeks unspecified damages, an admission that the district violated Nguon's civil rights and a policy change preventing officials from revealing a student's sexual orientation.
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i <3 this song! [Nov. 26th, 2005|08:49 pm]
[I'm feeling... |bouncy]
[The Sounds In My Head!!!!!!!!!!! |Phantom of the Opera...in ur mind]

The Point Of No Return

No thoughts within her head but thoughts of joy!
No dreams within her heart but dreams of love

You have come here
In pursuit of your deepest urge
In pursuit of that wish
Which 'till now has been silent

I have brought you
That our passions may fuse and merge
In your mind
You've already succumbed to me
Dropped all defences
Completely succumbed to me

Now you are here with me
No second thoughts
You've decided

Past the point of no return
No backward glances
The games we've played 'till now
Are at an end

Past all thought of if or when
No use resisting
Abandon thought
And let the dream descend

What raging fire shall flood the soul?
What rich desire unlocks its door?
What sweet seduction lies
Before us?

Past the point of no return
The final threshold
What warm, unspoken secrets will we learn?
Beyond the point of no return...

You have brought me
To that moment where words run dry
To that moment where speech disappears
Into silence

I have come here
Hardly knowing the reason why
In my mind I've already imagined
Our bodies entwining
Defenceless and silent

And now I am here with you
No second thoughts
I've decided

Past the point of no return
No going back now
Our passion-play has now, at last

Past all thought of right or wrong
One final question-
How long should we two wait
Before we're one?

When will the blood begin to race
The sleeping blood burst into bloom
When will the flames, at last
Consume us?

Past the point of no return
The final threshold
The brige is crossed, so stand
And watch it burn...

We've passed the point of no return...
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ya.....i'm paranoid like this yo [Nov. 23rd, 2005|11:10 am]
[I'm feeling... |scaredparanoid...]
[The Sounds In My Head!!!!!!!!!!! |swing life away]

A 17 year old girl got online to find her mother online! So she decided to start a quick convo with her mom... which would forever scar her...

Mom: Hey sweet heart! Are you having a nice time at your dads?
Girl: Yea, it's pretty cool! Ya know... considering he's not here! Hehe
Mom:Oh really?
Mom: Where is he?
Girl: He left a note saying he was going to the store or something like that.
Girl: Hey, you have a webcam now, don't you!
Mom: Sure do, Kenny bought it for me!
Girl: Cool! Try it out!
Mom: Alrighty...
Girl: Oh god mom! What are you wearing?!
Mom: New jammies, you like?
Girl: No way! Those are so out of style!
Mom: Aww... Oh well-
Girl: Hey mom... Is kenny there with you?
Mom: No, why?
Girl: ....Mom....Don't move... just stay calm.. there's someone in the door way behind you...
Mom: Don't scare me!
Girl: ..I'm not kidding... look in the reflection of the monitor... then slowly grab the phone and call 911....

Before her mother was able to reach the phone an ice pick was stabbed into the back of her neck and yanked all the way across. That's the last thing the girl saw of her mother- blood from her mothers throat splashed all over the camera. The only thing visible were shadows. She saw this person tear her mother limb from limb... All she could do was watch in horror as this shadow killed the only person she loved.

Now that you know this information, that same shadow will be standing behind you in 5 minutes ready to kill you unless you spread this information to different people.

I'd suggest you hurry up and repost
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psychoness update! [Nov. 22nd, 2005|08:28 pm]
[I'm feeling... |goodgood]
[The Sounds In My Head!!!!!!!!!!! |sum rap stuffs]

so, this is how crazy i am now
Paranoid Personality Disorder:Very High
Schizoid Personality Disorder:Moderate
Schizotypal Personality Disorder:High
Antisocial Personality Disorder:High
Borderline Personality Disorder:Very High
Histrionic Personality Disorder:Very High
Narcissistic Personality Disorder:High
Avoidant Personality Disorder:High
Dependent Personality Disorder:High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:High

-- Take the Personality Disorder Test --
-- Personality Disorder Info --

surprisingly, tom did worse! lol
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Bloodlust [Nov. 16th, 2005|05:37 pm]
[I'm feeling... |naughty;)]
[The Sounds In My Head!!!!!!!!!!! |dontcha luv writing songs?]

I'm in the mood of bloodlust
I'm in the mood to tear
I've been getting some nasy ideas
And I think it's time for me to share

Blood is fun
I like to make it ooze
Limbs are fun
When you tear them off
Death is fun
When it's somebody else
Or maybe not

Would u rather touch me
Would u rather fuck me
Would u rather cut me
Into pieces
I've been telling stories
Of all these glories
But now it's time
For you to believe it
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